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Thoughts on "Extreme Porn" Legislation.
I strongly believe in self-regulation.  I am of the opinion that adult content providers, such as myself, need to be responsible and appropriate in where we post out work.  There is a place for almost everything and we need to be respectful of people who have different values than ourselves.  People with weird desires, kinks and fetishes are entitled to their opinions and predilections as long as they are being law-abiding and appropriate about it. There is nothing wrong with being discreet about your sex life -- especially when most people would find it revolting.  Likewise, people such as myself who create art of an extreme nature should be mindful of their audience, even if the "pornographic art" isn't really about trying to arouse or shock people, so much as trying to tell a story using these prurient elements.  This is not about being closeted or ashamed of one's self, but about not being in everyone's face and being an asshole.  Respect is a two-way street after all, and the key to avoiding unreasonable legislation is self-control.  With that said, I would like to point out a bit of chilling piece of legislation regarding "Extreme Porn" that is brewing in Britain.  While I don't agree with all of the viewpoints presented, I am in solidarity with the core of the issue. I learned about it from Mukkinese who brought the issue up in the Cybrotica Forums.  He did a beautiful job explaining it in plain English:

"The U.K. government is planning on bringing in a law (probably unopposed), that wil make it a crime to possess (have on your harddrive) images of what it terms as 'extreme porn'. Unfortunately the definitions given are so vague that people wont know if they are commiting a crime until found guilty by a jury.

They propose to ban possessing images of; Necrophilia Beastiality and 'violent' porn. No one has a problem with the first two, except when you read more deeply, the proposal will include acted out scenes and even Poser scenes, possibly including mythical/fictional creatures.

The definition of what constitutes violent porn is; anything the jury can reasonably believe is 'realistic' (including Poser type material) and shows a dipiction of real or lasting harm or the fear of it (whether with consent, acted out or Poser type), we know that will include depictions of rape fantasies, breath-play and almost anything that leaves a mark, but not how far these definitions may extend with regard to BDSM in general. It has been suggested even some bondage may fall into this category."

"Under obscenity laws a jury has to decide if an image will 'deprave and corrupt' those who are likely to see it.

As you can imagine in recent years the number convicted under that law has dropped to single figures, so we think this is the puritans new ploy to get porn.

Juries can only decide if A; an image is pornographic (meant to sexually excite) B; they are 'realistic' images and C; if it shows serious injuries or fear of same.

Notice they don't get to decide if the images are dangerous, immoral, socially acceptable or obscene. The word realistic was included so that this would not be limited to photographs alone."
As a big fan of underground art who also loves splatter cinema, this is rather troubling.   This kind of over the top blanket legislation could potentially have a horrifying effect on the arts and literature. I mean, for fuck's sake, the quasi-realistic paintings H.R. Giger are largely works of surrealistic goru with the occassional non-human creature and dismemberment. Are they going to send people to jail for three years and place them on the sex offender registry for having a few of those pieces on one's hard drive?  What about a good percentage of horror flicks?  Could a screen cap from say from a particularly gory and "realistic" scene from Nightmare on Elm Street 3 or even a goofy student film be considered a crime?  I have no problem to sending people to jail for material than truly breaks the law.  I don't care where you're from, but if you like REAL snuff films and sexually assaulting beings who are unable to consent, and you don't even bother to get help, YOU DESERVE WHATEVER PUNISHMENT SOCIETY HAS TO DISH UPON YOU. 

Most people who consume extreme art can tell the difference between reality and fantasy.  For example, I think my character, Dmitri, is fascinating as an element for artistic and literary exploration. 
Yet, he is much like a train wreck, I need to look at him and I need to figure out why he exists in my head.  If he actually did exist, I would call the cops immediately and hope he'd get locked up for life -- if I didn't have to resort to defending myself with my rifle.  I don't understand him, and I would worry if I did understand him completely.  Having been the victim of sexual assault, having lost a friend to a sexual predator and narrowly escaping a similar fate, I have some desire to understand why someone would do such a heinous crime to a fellow human being.  I want to understand why I was simultaneously paralyzed, aroused, disgusted, rage-filled and hopeless when it seemingly kept happening to me, over and over.  I want to understand why my mom cried so much when she was a criminal lawyer, after hearing countless horrifying stories in the courtroom that never reached my ears.  I want to know why is it than when I finally decided to fight back in an aggressive and decisive manner the attackers/stalkers/creeps stopped messing with me. 

Even though there is no sense to be made of someone out of someone evil, I want to understand at least why I feel like I do.  I want to feel like I can heal and be normal.  I can't catch any of those pigs who hurt me, to shackle them and force them to tell me what was going through their heads when they attacked me, without becoming as evil as they are or risking serious jail time.  Fortunately, I can create my own predatorial lab-rat out of pixels and ink, and force him to reveal what's going on in his head, with my creativity exerting a god-like power over this illustration's very existance.  Creating a character like Dmitri to me, is like catching a nightmare and turning it into something useful that is no longer scary.  I can destroy him at any time without any real consequence in the real world aside from a bunch of disappointed fans of the character.  For a former victim, that is an incredibly empowering and liberating force.  Even more powerfully, violent art is a strange method for giving me the vent I need to avoid real violence and destructive behaviors.  I feel a compulsion to explore the dichotomy between power and weakness; predators and prey.  Rather than using self-hatred, drugs and alcohol to mask this desire, I can actually deal with it with "extreme pornography."  I might perverted, and I had some strange experiences, but my sex-life as a woman on the edge of my mid-thirties is surprisingly less exciting that it should be.  I don't think that's  a bad thing, and in fact, it's pretty normal and nothing shameful.   I owe this normalization within me to my ability to express such aborrent and abominable thoughts in a safe playground and an appropriate venue.  A big part of living in a civilized society is the art of finding the least harmful solutions to the most harmful problems.

Fear of violence and sexuality, have been a poweful catalyst of the mythological and historical development of humanity.  It is human nature to fear what it doesn't understand, and finding productive ways to deal with these fears.  If humanity has no way to express these horrors, then humanity risks being succumbed by the illusions of ignorance.  Humans have been this way even before recorded history began, and I doubt that they will stop being this way.  For this reason, I have a problem with legislation that punishes people for being interested in expressing these dark and primordial thoughts with the aid of good special effects, and lumps them in the same with REAL monsters.  It's really what it all boils down to.  Do we really want to waste law-enforcement's resources on someone creating a good fictional story, or would we rather hunt those who actually behave in violent and inhuman ways?

If you are in Britain, please consider what your goverment is doing.  As for my fellow Americans, we need to stay vigilant, because there is a very real possibility that this kind of madness will reach our shores.

10:19 PM - Wednesday, February 21, 2007 - post comment

Understanding One's Dark Fantasies

I have to say, first of all, that it's good, for my conscience, to have someone who was victimized by a sexual predator... call me a friend, despite what I produce. I am truly amazed at your determination, and glad to find I'm not the only person drawing/writing horrific stories while being completely against such things in real life.
Realistically, I, too, was a victim, though as a child... I won't go into details, but the bastard was never punished for what he did. However the way my family reacted when I outed the bastard marked me as much as the abuse itself...
I do believe that experience ---- a memory that vanished from my mind until I was 15, 10 years after it happened; a true repressed memory ---- affected my development. In RL I'm a shy, introverted individual, always afraid... afraid of hurting others or being hurt, and with terrible self-esteem. In truth, while I can't truly pin down why I enjoy brutal damsels-in-danger imagery (the pedophile was a man, not a woman, so...?), I realized I was using it as a form of therapy as well as entertainment... trying, aimlessly, to empower myself, and using it as an outlet to vent my frustrations on something that couldn't REALLY suffer (images and text, as opposed to real women). I'm better than I was, but I'm far from great.
Still, like you said, just because a person owns or even creates and enjoys brutal stories, art, and roleplays does NOT make them criminals in RL. I draw images of women suffering and being used as objects, however in RL I have actually gotten the crap beaten out of me for coming to the aid of a woman ---- one I didn't know ---- being assaulted (verbally mostly, but it was degenerating) by two drunk guys. I fear approaching women for fear of being hurt, but also for fear of hurting THEM. My RL self and my Fantasy alterego are two very different people. Yes, I think I could enjoy acting out nasty things, but there's always guilt and fear there to keep me docile... and always, ALWAYS only with complete, clear consent. The line between fantasy and reality is damn clear to me.
Like you said... I'm not creating these stories and images for others really; though I've begun posting things and have my new paysite set up, I truly create this stuff for myself... as I always did. In a way, posting it for others to see is as much a statement about myself as it is a search for some kind of feedback. I'm saying "see? SEE? I draw all this stuff and write all these stories, but I'm willing to let the world see them! I'm not hiding it anymore! I want people to understand me, and therefore not fear me, and thus improve my own trust in my own self..."

...anyway... I'm rambling. But as you can see, this is an important subject to me.

Thanks for calling me a friend.

Edited by KavenBach on Saturday, April 14, 2007 at 1:06 AM

- 12:05 AM - Saturday, April 14, 2007

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